known

i'm really digging this song as of late. if you haven't heard audrey assad, find her on itunes. right now, this song affirms for me that God knows my heart about our adoption. he knows all my sadness, all my worry, all my anticipation, all my frustration, all my joy. he knows all those thoughts that are jumbling around inside of me...some of which never make it to human ears. he also knows our children in exactly the same way. he knows all of their sadness, all of their worries, all of their frustrations, and all of their joys. he knows all of our burdens and bears them alongside of us.

today we found out that our agency is waiting for paperwork for 4 toddlers that is "forthcoming." this is the same paperwork our case manager told about 6 weeks ago. once that paperwork comes in, we will be matched with a toddler and then the next infant. however, we also found out today that 2 families who got their paperwork in before us (and who had been waiting on siblings) decided they were tired of waiting for siblings and decided to open themselves up to unrelated children, which means we are no longer technically "next" to receive a referral. this was a bit devastating, but we are trying to push forward and believe God is orchestrating all things to bring us to the two specific children he has chosen for us. please pray we would hear soon.